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<h2>Things I believe</h2>
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I think everyone has something to offer and they are always open to do that.
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The problem is there are so many things affecting us that we tend to be mean to each other, however, this means I believe humans have a good heart.
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Any one has the capacity to become awesome at something.
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The reasons why people look for expertise, in the end, I believe, has nothing to do with the actual matter. I rather collaborate with someone up for a challange that some expert on the matter.
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We need one another.
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Anyone can do things on its own perhaps not everything. However, I believe doing things together makes the experience more fun.
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You are going to fail.
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And so will I. That's the way it is and I'm fine with the logic behind. Do fail. By all means, do it.
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I'm an open book. I trust you by default.
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And if you decide to break that trust, that's alright. You will save some time. I'm all about creating long lasting friendships and time is of the essence.
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There are social conventions, social cues and sugar coding. I don't understand any of them.
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Just be straight with me. I won't get offended. Otherwise, there will be misunderstanding. I guarantee that.
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<h2>Flaws</h2>
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I enjoy people in very, very short amounts of time:
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I get bored. It's not people's fault but rather that I'm poorly made. After a few decades on the planet I finally know why. The reason why I can't be too much around people is because I'm happy. And when I'm happy my baggage, my traumas as a child, push me away as a defense mechanism. I don't want to lose that happiness. I don't want to lose that people in my life. This is quite sad since I cannot fix that. I can only cope with it.
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I'm way too idealistic:
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I find impossible things very appealing so I aim to that.
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I hate myself:
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Most of the time my stupidity doesn't pay off so...
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I tend to be the stand up guy:
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but I think it's because deep down I want to be the hero. Because heroes get to be loved and accepted. And I, as I have discovered, was rejected since early childhood and in so I have no place where I feel at home.
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I'm not sure about anything:
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I blame my training in physics.
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I'm very pessimistic:
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My pessimism is the fuel of my optimism.
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I get bored a lot:
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This most likely is a brain issue. A brain issue what was fixed at early stage of childhood.
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I need to be busy:
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I used to believe it was an existential reason but now I know it's because my childhood trauma.
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I care how I dress:
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Well, I do. I enjoy fashion as an art.
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I care how I look:
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When you are not handsom, all you have is artificial aesthetics.
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